Mar 31st, 2013
Looking up to the sky near the Fire pit on the property, I
witness at least one hundred crows fly in several sub-groups overhead. They
seem to be flying north. I have never seen crows migrate. My heart feels
awe and joy in hearing and seeing them!
Mar 31st, 2013
Holding Guardian Ma, sitting next to Root Ma, I am at peace. Chickadees flit about. One lands on the vine of Guardian Ma and I feel Chickadee's movements through the vibrations. It flies and lands only feet away on the companion tree and looks at me for a moment or two before flying off. I breathe, my body relaxed today.
"What teachings am I to bring?" I ask Ma.
"What is in your heart?" she asks.
I sit awhile with this question. I feel for where my heart is free, alive... Do I want to get out of offering formal trainings? Maybe... What exactly am I moving away from? I am at the end of 8 months of teaching, and I feel the intensity.
I feel so happy to be out this morning – free – there is beautiful energy today. My kind of day -- cool outside, but not cold, with lovely sunshine, birds, and trees and plants beginning to awaken.
This is what I want in my life.
I look at two spider webs on the forest floor beside Guardian Ma – interweaving of gossamer threads. The light breeze plays with the sunshine on the woven patterns.
To live lightly, interwoven in the fabric of this place...
"How do I live, Mother, within these teachings? How do I balance the day-to-day with…?” I struggle for a moment to find words for my question. “…With what comes as Mol’farka?”
"With boundaries. With clarity. With roots. Define yourself and live the definition – be the medicine. And know what is important to you and why. Now, go on your way. Another Ma waits for you."
Walking toward the Deeper Grove I encounter an emanation of Ma that I have not sat with before. As I approach her, my eye catches a spiral pattern on the ground. Snail. Thinking the shell is empty, I pick it up. It is very alive! I apologise and put it back where I found it.
Turning to leave, I hear the words, "Come speak with me."
Turning back to the new Ma, I make offerings and connect with her. Images of teaching arise. Images of being on my dream property arise.
I find myself wondering about my place in the world – wondering if there will be a place for these teachings.
"I do not think I will be able to keep up with all the changes as these new technologies arise," I say to her.
"You do not need to, child. There are some whose work it is to remain connected to the land, the old ways, the simple life. You are the roots. Your technology is a deeper way – the way of sensing, second sight, and heart knowing.
Yours is the path of the heart, child. The path of the heart."
Walking away feeling as if I had been there a long time, I glance at my watch to notice it had only been a few minutes. Snail – did she perhaps slow time? Was she perhaps a time-shifter?
I walk to Heart Ma, make formal greeting and ask for guidance about the teachings.
"Ancient Ma will instruct you about that," Heart Ma says.
Instead, then, I open a floodgate of inner images – life at home, deepening my commitments and Ma's teachings, questions about companionship…
She offers, in return, "Be in the teachings. Live ceremonially. It is up to you. Offer your prayers. There will be a natural change. Your vibration will change, and what is meant to come will find its way to you.
Cultivate these ways – for your heart, and for the teachings to emerge. This will be your gift. Cultivate second sight – it is part of your “technology,” and far more advanced and powerful than any mechanism that will be created."
"How do I cultivate second sight?" I ask.
"Live with an open clear heart. Strengthen your heart energy, let it get stronger, more expanded. Journey often. Learn our ways. Dedicate yourself to this purpose, teach, remain on track and clear…
Why is second sight so important? Because of interdependence and the new DNA – break down the barriers and see how connected we are. Information is available freely and all the time. Move into a new strata of existence. Evolve. It is time to evolve. Not as independents. We all evolve together. Interdependent. In unity with Gaia and the greater cosmos. It is time."
I allow myself to sit a few moments and absorb the plethora of instruction.
After a time, I give gratitude and turn to approach Ancient Ma. Reaching out to touch her and lean my forehead into her curve, I feel my body as one of the trees here.
"You are One among us," Ancient Ma says. "Are you willing to be radical? To bring the teachings of Earth Medicine forward?"
I pause. A flurry of images and feelings pass through my body and mind. Suddenly the material and path I have been teaching for 20 years feels tight – constraining, and even “foreign” like it does not belong to me.
"Yes, Mother, it makes sense," I say to her.
"Are you willing to recreate the teachings? Go home and contemplate these things. It is time."
Apr 7th, 2013
The sun streams lazily through my window, gently stroking my skin awake. I slowly sit upright, and rather than jump into tasks and “doing,” I decide to take a morning journey with Heart Ma.
Staying seated, cozy in my blankets, I imagine and feel her
in my heart-eye. Simultaneously, in a
deeper layer of my awareness, the phone invitation I received yesterday from a
man I met on the weekend replays itself...
Then Crow Molfar interjects, "It is time to go now." He instantly brings me out of the journey, with wakeful mind and body.
~*~
I hold in my hands three feathers, a hair offering, and the ties that I used this year to bind my apprenticeship braids.
I pause at Adorned One in the Sacred Grove to offer a young owl feather. A single strand of hair from my hair-offering accompanies the feather as I pull it out from my offering-pouch. Gently sticking the shaft of the feather in the space between two of Adorned One’s intertwined vines, I say aloud, "May this signify new beginnings." Grasping the single hair, I twine it around her vines as well. "May my energy be adjoined and sealed to this prayer."
Greeting Guardian and Root Ma, I place tobacco and one of the ties at their shared base – in the same little cave as the seeds of Dark Ma and the other offerings I have made through the year. Touching Guardian, my heart on the left side feels pain – sadness – hers, not mine.
She whispers, "You must go."
I inquire about her sadness, but the pain remains and she whispers again, "You must go."
Thoughts of my previous spiritual teacher and mentor arise. I have recently reconnected with her after 5 years of distance and disconnect.
I sense Guardian Ma is feeling the pain of the shift of our own relationship. Though not disconnected from Guardian Ma, my teachings must, at this time, come from Heart Ma.
Sighing, I send a wave of love and gratitude to Guardian.
Walking toward Turn in the Road, I observe that her vine curves clockwise while her bark curves counter-clockwise. From a distance, I feel her power as I tap into the vortex.
As I get closer, I see a new branch emerging from her 90 degree bend. "New beginnings emerging at the turn in the road," she chirps. Her message is an affirmation to me.
She repeats, "You must go."
I walk toward the Deeper Grove and pass by Fairy Ma. New vines emerge in several places from her vine. "Eat Me!", I hear.
I have a sudden feeling of being Alice in Wonderland, and remember the time I ate marijuana flowers in Amsterdam. At the time, I began to see through the walls and ground, and I also experienced a shift in sizes and shapes – much like I imagine Alice must have felt in Wonderland.
I offer Fairy Ma tobacco and eat a small new tip from the vine, affirming to myself, "This is medicine." The familiar bitter and pungent flavour washes over my tongue.
Walking by Snail Ma, I pause and connect with her briefly. She too says, "Eat Me!" when I view one of the newly emerging vines from her base. It is the first to grow along her entire length, and is mirrored on the other side by another newly sprouting branch. "I can't eat that one – it is the first new growth on your vine."
"All the better," she says. "Medicine of new growth. Eat me!"
I make offerings and eat it with thanks, and walk to Heart Ma, passing by an unusual little creature – half mushroom, half seaweed-like.
As I arrive at Heart Ma, I feel joy and excitement. Making formal greetings, I pull out the young Raven feather that glistens midnight-blue at its tip, and bind a piece of grass from the Sacred Grove along with a few strands of hair to its shaft. Then the grouping is tied, using another strand of grass, to Heart Ma.
"May you accept me as student. May I open my heart with your teachings. May I connect with Crow Molfar through you."
Grasping the remaining bundle of hair-offering and the third feather, and using one of the ties that reminds me of my young-self, I bind the shaft and hair together.
"May the interactions with this new Other in my life bring us each healing through our sharing of medicine."
Using remaining tie, which represents my wisdom-self, I wrap another layer onto the offering.
"May we each grow in clear-heart."
I look for something to use for binding this final offering to Heart Ma. I ask the forest floor for something he (the Other) would be likely to use. A long strand of dried grass catches my eye from a distance. I retrieve it and attempt to tie the feather offering to Ma, but the strand breaks.
I look around and Ma asks, "What do you want to use? What does your heart want as a binding force?"
I find a live clump of grass and use it to bind. I know I am to wrap it twice around Ma, and tie it in three knots to make sure it is secure.
I begin the binding, and feel the soft pliability of the grass. The sensation penetrates my heart.
"Use the softness," Ma says. "Tie it strongly, and gently," she says.
"The old patterns will not do. Trust yourself, trust your softness."
"May you find me here," I say, directing my words to him.
As I leave, I pause for a moment at Ancient Ma, placing my forehead on her. Her bark and vines twine in opposite directions.
"Feel me," she says, in answer to my silent quest for guidance about what I am to bring to others as teachings.
"Feel me," she says as I open into my heart.
"Let my teachings emerge through you."
Images of her vine growing through my soft and open heart arise.
I feel free. I feel alive.
Mar 31st, 2013
Holding Guardian Ma, sitting next to Root Ma, I am at peace. Chickadees flit about. One lands on the vine of Guardian Ma and I feel Chickadee's movements through the vibrations. It flies and lands only feet away on the companion tree and looks at me for a moment or two before flying off. I breathe, my body relaxed today.
"What teachings am I to bring?" I ask Ma.
"What is in your heart?" she asks.
I sit awhile with this question. I feel for where my heart is free, alive... Do I want to get out of offering formal trainings? Maybe... What exactly am I moving away from? I am at the end of 8 months of teaching, and I feel the intensity.
I feel so happy to be out this morning – free – there is beautiful energy today. My kind of day -- cool outside, but not cold, with lovely sunshine, birds, and trees and plants beginning to awaken.
This is what I want in my life.
I look at two spider webs on the forest floor beside Guardian Ma – interweaving of gossamer threads. The light breeze plays with the sunshine on the woven patterns.
To live lightly, interwoven in the fabric of this place...
"How do I live, Mother, within these teachings? How do I balance the day-to-day with…?” I struggle for a moment to find words for my question. “…With what comes as Mol’farka?”
"With boundaries. With clarity. With roots. Define yourself and live the definition – be the medicine. And know what is important to you and why. Now, go on your way. Another Ma waits for you."
Walking toward the Deeper Grove I encounter an emanation of Ma that I have not sat with before. As I approach her, my eye catches a spiral pattern on the ground. Snail. Thinking the shell is empty, I pick it up. It is very alive! I apologise and put it back where I found it.
Turning to leave, I hear the words, "Come speak with me."
Turning back to the new Ma, I make offerings and connect with her. Images of teaching arise. Images of being on my dream property arise.
I find myself wondering about my place in the world – wondering if there will be a place for these teachings.
"I do not think I will be able to keep up with all the changes as these new technologies arise," I say to her.
"You do not need to, child. There are some whose work it is to remain connected to the land, the old ways, the simple life. You are the roots. Your technology is a deeper way – the way of sensing, second sight, and heart knowing.
Yours is the path of the heart, child. The path of the heart."
Walking away feeling as if I had been there a long time, I glance at my watch to notice it had only been a few minutes. Snail – did she perhaps slow time? Was she perhaps a time-shifter?
I walk to Heart Ma, make formal greeting and ask for guidance about the teachings.
"Ancient Ma will instruct you about that," Heart Ma says.
Instead, then, I open a floodgate of inner images – life at home, deepening my commitments and Ma's teachings, questions about companionship…
She offers, in return, "Be in the teachings. Live ceremonially. It is up to you. Offer your prayers. There will be a natural change. Your vibration will change, and what is meant to come will find its way to you.
Cultivate these ways – for your heart, and for the teachings to emerge. This will be your gift. Cultivate second sight – it is part of your “technology,” and far more advanced and powerful than any mechanism that will be created."
"How do I cultivate second sight?" I ask.
"Live with an open clear heart. Strengthen your heart energy, let it get stronger, more expanded. Journey often. Learn our ways. Dedicate yourself to this purpose, teach, remain on track and clear…
Why is second sight so important? Because of interdependence and the new DNA – break down the barriers and see how connected we are. Information is available freely and all the time. Move into a new strata of existence. Evolve. It is time to evolve. Not as independents. We all evolve together. Interdependent. In unity with Gaia and the greater cosmos. It is time."
I allow myself to sit a few moments and absorb the plethora of instruction.
After a time, I give gratitude and turn to approach Ancient Ma. Reaching out to touch her and lean my forehead into her curve, I feel my body as one of the trees here.
"You are One among us," Ancient Ma says. "Are you willing to be radical? To bring the teachings of Earth Medicine forward?"
I pause. A flurry of images and feelings pass through my body and mind. Suddenly the material and path I have been teaching for 20 years feels tight – constraining, and even “foreign” like it does not belong to me.
"Yes, Mother, it makes sense," I say to her.
"Are you willing to recreate the teachings? Go home and contemplate these things. It is time."
Apr 7th, 2013
The sun streams lazily through my window, gently stroking my skin awake. I slowly sit upright, and rather than jump into tasks and “doing,” I decide to take a morning journey with Heart Ma.
I make a special offering of
feather and hair to Heart Ma, and then journey up her vine to a "Y"
fork... One branch brings me to a place of foggy density or gentle darkness. I
feel a pain in my heart. Oddly, the pain is in the right side of my chest,
though it is distinctly my heart centre. And I know, without words, that
meeting this person who called yesterday will be a journey to heal my heart and
reclaim a part of me that continues to wander in the fog and dark – a part that
has been wandering for a few years now. My
passionate alive heart. I did not call her (the passionate heart)
back to me. It is not time yet.
I travel back to the
"Y," and move along the other branch. There are no images. Rather,
“knowings” arise – that I will additionally experience another path with this
man – a path of growth in the teachings and practices, and evolution for me as
a person. A glimmer of my dream home and building it with his help also arises.
It is the first time I have seen another included in this vision of the future
property.
I return to Heart Ma’s base and
look for Crow Molfar. He is elusive...
"Do not to look for me
today – I will find you instead," he says.
I wander the Deeper Grove, walking
amongst my friends. When Crow Molfar
finds me, he kisses my forehead, nose, lips and then upper heart.
He says, "It is time
child. Open your heart. See with your heart. Shed your skin."
Images of the teachings I offer – all of them – arise, with Ancient Ma’s voice threading among them.
Images of the teachings I offer – all of them – arise, with Ancient Ma’s voice threading among them.
"Your path is the Deeper
Medicine, the path and technology of the heart, the awakened language. Teach
the Deeper Medicine. Let this be your
focus. Shed your old skin and begin anew."
Then Crow Molfar interjects, "It is time to go now." He instantly brings me out of the journey, with wakeful mind and body.
~*~
I hold in my hands three feathers, a hair offering, and the ties that I used this year to bind my apprenticeship braids.
I pause at Adorned One in the Sacred Grove to offer a young owl feather. A single strand of hair from my hair-offering accompanies the feather as I pull it out from my offering-pouch. Gently sticking the shaft of the feather in the space between two of Adorned One’s intertwined vines, I say aloud, "May this signify new beginnings." Grasping the single hair, I twine it around her vines as well. "May my energy be adjoined and sealed to this prayer."
Greeting Guardian and Root Ma, I place tobacco and one of the ties at their shared base – in the same little cave as the seeds of Dark Ma and the other offerings I have made through the year. Touching Guardian, my heart on the left side feels pain – sadness – hers, not mine.
She whispers, "You must go."
I inquire about her sadness, but the pain remains and she whispers again, "You must go."
Thoughts of my previous spiritual teacher and mentor arise. I have recently reconnected with her after 5 years of distance and disconnect.
I sense Guardian Ma is feeling the pain of the shift of our own relationship. Though not disconnected from Guardian Ma, my teachings must, at this time, come from Heart Ma.
Sighing, I send a wave of love and gratitude to Guardian.
Walking toward Turn in the Road, I observe that her vine curves clockwise while her bark curves counter-clockwise. From a distance, I feel her power as I tap into the vortex.
As I get closer, I see a new branch emerging from her 90 degree bend. "New beginnings emerging at the turn in the road," she chirps. Her message is an affirmation to me.
She repeats, "You must go."
I walk toward the Deeper Grove and pass by Fairy Ma. New vines emerge in several places from her vine. "Eat Me!", I hear.
I have a sudden feeling of being Alice in Wonderland, and remember the time I ate marijuana flowers in Amsterdam. At the time, I began to see through the walls and ground, and I also experienced a shift in sizes and shapes – much like I imagine Alice must have felt in Wonderland.
I offer Fairy Ma tobacco and eat a small new tip from the vine, affirming to myself, "This is medicine." The familiar bitter and pungent flavour washes over my tongue.
Walking by Snail Ma, I pause and connect with her briefly. She too says, "Eat Me!" when I view one of the newly emerging vines from her base. It is the first to grow along her entire length, and is mirrored on the other side by another newly sprouting branch. "I can't eat that one – it is the first new growth on your vine."
"All the better," she says. "Medicine of new growth. Eat me!"
I make offerings and eat it with thanks, and walk to Heart Ma, passing by an unusual little creature – half mushroom, half seaweed-like.
As I arrive at Heart Ma, I feel joy and excitement. Making formal greetings, I pull out the young Raven feather that glistens midnight-blue at its tip, and bind a piece of grass from the Sacred Grove along with a few strands of hair to its shaft. Then the grouping is tied, using another strand of grass, to Heart Ma.
"May you accept me as student. May I open my heart with your teachings. May I connect with Crow Molfar through you."
Grasping the remaining bundle of hair-offering and the third feather, and using one of the ties that reminds me of my young-self, I bind the shaft and hair together.
"May the interactions with this new Other in my life bring us each healing through our sharing of medicine."
Using remaining tie, which represents my wisdom-self, I wrap another layer onto the offering.
"May we each grow in clear-heart."
I look for something to use for binding this final offering to Heart Ma. I ask the forest floor for something he (the Other) would be likely to use. A long strand of dried grass catches my eye from a distance. I retrieve it and attempt to tie the feather offering to Ma, but the strand breaks.
I look around and Ma asks, "What do you want to use? What does your heart want as a binding force?"
I find a live clump of grass and use it to bind. I know I am to wrap it twice around Ma, and tie it in three knots to make sure it is secure.
I begin the binding, and feel the soft pliability of the grass. The sensation penetrates my heart.
"Use the softness," Ma says. "Tie it strongly, and gently," she says.
"The old patterns will not do. Trust yourself, trust your softness."
"May you find me here," I say, directing my words to him.
As I leave, I pause for a moment at Ancient Ma, placing my forehead on her. Her bark and vines twine in opposite directions.
"Feel me," she says, in answer to my silent quest for guidance about what I am to bring to others as teachings.
"Feel me," she says as I open into my heart.
"Let my teachings emerge through you."
Images of her vine growing through my soft and open heart arise.
I feel free. I feel alive.
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